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This door has been shut for days and it's all too familiar. Can I just crack a window, can I just shake it off? I'm sure I've tasted this before. Everything is out of reach and I just want to see outside. The air has been getting thin. I feel like cutting it open tonight and falling on the floor. There's nothing left unused in here, there's nothing left to say. I haven't talked in days and I'm really not too sure what I sound like anymore. My vision has gone and my mouth is full of sores. I feel like dripping it dry tonight, over and over again. It's time to open up the door.
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[wednesday, september 27th, 2006 at 9pm] |
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jdvjdf They're arguing and I'm freezing and shaking but it's not cold and my hands are sweating and I feel like I'm going to throw up and I hate this. I hate it so much.
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[saturday, september 23rd, 2006 at 1pm] |
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Omg it's anotherrrr update. This is the negative serious one, there'll probably be a postive one after it though.
So I really don't think you have any idea how I've been feeling lately which might've lead to this "change" everyone thinks I've gone through. Do you think that finding out my parents are going to get seperated sometime soon was good news for me? Do you know how it felt to have your "best friend" not say one word to you about how you've been feeling and ask if you're okay? It isn't any better when I find out that my grandma might have cancer and go through a scare of my mom possibly having it too. They aren't even sure if something is definately wrong or not. Talking to people like Kelsey and Sam and Briana and Amanda and Breanna and maybeee even Nicole helps me forget about all the shit going on in my life. You have no idea how much everything has been fucking with me lately and you trying to act all tough and say you hate me is not going to break me no matter how hard you try. Losing a friendship that would've ended at some point anyway amounts no where near to everything else I've been through. Sorry, you're stuck with me, face it. I know my friends don't hate me and I really don't give a shit if some are pretending to like me. They're not worth it anyway. And I'm the immature one here? I'd like to see you try to keep yourself together every day the way I have to. I can't wait until I go to college and get my dream job and help all the people that have helped me through everything. And I don't care if anyone thinks I can't do it, I know I can and everyone knows about that saying that if you want something bad enough you can get it. And I definately want this enough to give up everything for it. Just wait until I'm the one everyone is jealous of at the high school reunions. I really don't give a shit if this makes me sound like a have a huge ego. I know I'm a genuine person and I'm the farthest from fake, sorry. Ugh, just typing all this out makes me so excited. So have a nice life because I really have nothing else to say.
I LOVE YOU SAM, KELSEY, BRIANA, AMANDA, BREANNA AND NICOLE OKAY?
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[friday, september 22nd, 2006 at 10pm] |
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[edits!] Oh goddd, I can't wait until I'm amazingly successful and out of here with only amazing people around me. HI IT'S 11:11 LET'S WISH FOR MY FUTURE SO I CAN MAKE EVERYONE'S LIVES BETTER. Well, not everyone, but you know what I mean. My super high tech McDonalds phone is ringing, sry lj it's important.  Come on, look at that thing, excuse my mouth though.
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[thursday, september 21st, 2006 at 4pm] |
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I proooomised Kelsey I'd post a picture of my amazing taco box. Because I thought of her when I saw it, duh.
( HI TACOS )
And apparently my hair wins? Everyone who realized it was cut seemed to like it. Ohhh I just win I guess.
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[thursday, september 14th, 2006 at 3pm] |
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Oh oh I have like idk how long to do this because my mom might be home early idkkk. So like, Saturday was Showbread day, fo sho. And I took like 100 pictures, 80% being showbread. Josh is like ughhh amazing. He likes to hum while he signs shirts. And put his hair in a ponytail. Which is oddly attractive. I wish I took a picture.
BUT! I have other pictures of Showbread being amazing along with Roses Are Red and A Change of Pace so I'll show you those insteaaaad. And maybe my video if it ever uploads D:
( TO THE AMAZINGNESS. )
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[sunday, september 10th, 2006 at 4pm] |
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Okay okay, I know the state fair was 8 days ago but I don't care? I didn't upload my pictures from it until today so I'm doing an entry today.
( PICTURES AND STUFF. )
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[friday, september 8th, 2006 at 7pm] |
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So like, school is dumb already? Yeah idk I hate it get it away plz. AND GUESS WHAT BRIANA I DIDN'T ASK WHAT WE WERE TALKING ABOUT, OOPS. Stop being crazy right now. So I think my dad is taking me to see Showbread? Oh shit I'm excited. All we need is mom's car. Or my dad's truck to not be a whore and get fixed. And I don't know what I'm typing? Oh shit there's macaroni and cheese downstairs and I have to eat it or I'll explode. There better not be any of those rusty spoons down there. BRIANA KEEP THEM AWAY, OKAY? HIS EYES SCARE ME SO DOES HIS VOICE AND EVERYTHING ELSE OKAY? YEAH.
OH SHIT I BETTER MEET JOSH DIES OMG OMG I'LL DIE HAPPY.
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[tuesday, september 5th, 2006 at 1pm] |
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Kay so I have like 489534 sns so I'm getting rid of Adamheartstripes tomorrow because I don't want it anymore and people just use it to bother me about things they can't do themselves. So yeah, say gooooodbye to it.
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Kay, so this is Sam. I wanted to update brittneys lj so I am! She has to pee really bad and we're still in the car on the way home from Pennsylvania. I think he bladder is going to explode. Hershey park was fun. There were roller coasters. And they were fun. And there were chickens. And they were fun. We ate them. Good night.
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[thursday, august 17th, 2006 at 12pm] |
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Ohhh no. I'm going to be gone Thursday through Sunday or Monday. I hope we get to stay in a Paris Hilton.
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[thursday, august 17th, 2006 at 12am] |
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LET'S GO TO THE PARIS HILTON! right now plz. And stay in her. With all the beds and continental breakfasts.
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[sunday, august 13th, 2006 at 9pm] |
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So right now I feel like I'm going to throw up all over my monitor. I've never really written about anything that explained how I felt or whatever in an update but right now I just feel like I need to. Everyone seems to think I have the perfect family and that my parents are the best in the world and I would probably agree with them. I love my family more than they know and I know they love me as much as I do. About 40 minutes ago my mom called me downstairs because her and my dad wanted to talk to me. I'm like, about something stupid, right? Well guess what. My parents might get fucking divorced. What happened to my perfect family? I had no idea this was coming, at all. My parents have always seemed like they love eachother and they really never have fought in front of me. But I guess them not ever fighting was a bad thing. I have no fucking idea how I feel about this right now. I've seen how divorced families work and I don't want to go through that at all. This is all just so unexpected I don't even have any thoughts going through my head. And I know all of this is probably the worst English you've ever seen but I really don't give a shit. I can't think straight, therefore I can't type straight. There you go lj, a real update for once.
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[saturday, july 29th, 2006 at 11pm] |
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Okay, so it's like 12:01 and I'm still on, this is hot. Even though my eyes are screaming at me. I want to be blind by the time I'm 4. Oh wait. Uh uh, this post is to remind me what I'm doing with my life so I don't forget. Okay okay. Number one: Graduat(e) high school. Number two: Go to Columbia college in Chicago. Number three: Go back to NY and start up a venue. Number four: Let Kelsey design the venue. Number five: Start a record label. Number six: Give Kelsey a job at the label. Number seven: Let Kelsey decorate the office. Number eight: Only sign artists that make songs for Kelsey. Number nine: Sign lil jon no matter what. Number ten: Buy a house. Number eleven: Make the outside platinum and cover it in diamonds (grill, duh.). Number twelve(looks like you): Let Kelsey live in my house. Number thirteen: Be amazing. Oh wait, I already did that. Okay woah, this is kind of a real post? Since when do I do those? Fuck checking this over, I don't care about spelling at 12:16 am. Warped is in 3 days SHH IT'S STILL SATURDAY IDC. I'm still reaaaally excited but Underoath needs to stop playing on my itunes or I'll cryyy. TAI makes me really happy right now, omg sam get the ducky right now and don't forget it! I need it lots. Holy shit, this almost fills the whole box. I'm excited. Why am I excited about a long LJ entry? wtf. It's 12:21. Time is going by slow. I think the warped tour hates me and doesn't want to ever come. I want it to be Monday right now. I like rollercoasters a lot and I'm rambling. I don't like rambling. I should stop now. Night night LJ. Even thought I'm not going to bed.
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[friday, july 28th, 2006 at 6pm] |
"Underoath have left Warped Tour due to personal reasons. They were not suspended or asked to leave by the tour, but will not be finishing out the final two weeks."
I think I just died.
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[wednesday, july 26th, 2006 at 7pm] |
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OKAY OKAY. I have a new aim sn because it's amaaazing. skeetle ftw Because someone else in the world uses the word 'skeetle' besides me and kelsey. Wtf at that. Or should I say ftw? Uhh what elseeee, OH YEAH.
HAPPY BIRTHSKEETDAY KELSEYYYYY :D
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[monday, july 24th, 2006 at 9pm] |
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( lol what happened. )
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